Thursday, July 6, 2017

Entering Fully into the Terror 7/2/17 The Rev. David M. Stoddart



Genesis 22:1-14.  

In Hebrew Scripture, God usually communicates with human beings through angels. We see it at the end of this passage from Genesis today, when it is an angel who tells Abraham not to slay Isaac but to sacrifice the ram instead. But in this story, the order to kill Isaac does not come through an angel: it comes directly from God.  There is a Yiddish folktale about this very thing. In that tale, there is no angel because the angels refuse to go along with it. They say to God, “If you’re going to command Abraham to kill his own son, then you tell him. We’re not doing it!” This is a terrible story. And I’m with the angels on this one. I want to go on strike and tell God, “If you want this story preached in worship, then you come and preach it! I refuse!” But apparently I have less clout than the angels. So here I am, and this story will not be ignored. For one thing, it looms large in Israel’s history. Christians tend to refer to it as the sacrifice of Isaac, but not Jews: they call it the akedah, the binding of Isaac. And according to 2 Chronicles 3:1, the mountain of the akedah is the very place where the Temple is built centuries later; tradition holds that the altar of the Temple was located on the exact spot where Abraham built his altar and bound his son. But the story is inescapable for a more primal reason than that: it’s horrifying. Would the God we worship really ask anyone to murder their own child?

The answer to that seems clear: other ancient religions practiced human sacrifice, but the law of Israel strictly forbade it. Human sacrifice in general, and the sacrifice of children in particular, was deemed an abomination (Lev. 18:21; Jer. 7:30-34). Actually, our very notion of hell comes from it. The word translated as hell in the New Testament is Gehenna, which refers to the Valley of Hinnom outside of Jerusalem that served as a dump where people burned garbage. Why there? Because it was in that place centuries before Christ that the Israelites committed their worst apostasy: they worshiped the god Molech by burning their children alive as an offering to him. And so the place was held accursed forever, a symbol of everything evil. So the Old Testament itself makes it clear that God would never desire such a sacrifice, and our experience of God’s love in Jesus can only confirm that.

And yet we are left with this story. One approach to understanding it, quite common in rabbinic circles, is to say that Abraham flat-out got it wrong: God doesn’t want him to sacrifice Isaac; Abraham just misunderstands. And certainly the Bible is filled with stories of people who get it wrong. Or we could also hold that this is a one-of-a-kind test, something which only Abraham would ever undergo as the father of our faith. In that case, it could be like the event it obviously prefigures, the sacrifice of Jesus, God’s only Son, on the cross, which is also a once-in-eternity event. There is something to be said for these interpretations, but they have one basic flaw: they keep this story at a comfortable distance. Whether Abraham is just mistaken or unique, that means this awful story doesn’t apply to us, and we can quickly skip over it.

But that won’t work. The one thing this story can offer us can only be absorbed by entering into the terror of it and not avoiding it. Abraham has no good choice here: he can give up his son or he can give up the one thing that gives meaning to his life and his son’s life. It doesn’t matter existentially whether God is doing this to him or just it allowing it to happen; this is what Abraham is experiencing. Every option is bad, and what seems “right” to him, is unbearable. And if you are an adult and have never been in that same kind of situation, I don’t know how you’ve avoided it. To be a person of faith — no scratch that, to be a human being — means experiencing moments when every way forward is darkness, when the very goodness of God seems absent and pain is our only companion.

I have sat with people while they watched their child die. Do you surrender your precious child’s life, trusting in the loving providence of God or do you curse God in bitterness and heartbreak? No option is easy, even and especially the “right” one. I have listened to recovering alcoholics and addicts who are frantic: staying clean and sober feels impossible, but returning to alcohol or drug abuse will only destroy them. People have cried in my office as they have confronted devastating problems in their families that left them with no good course of action. I have had sleepless nights when I knew how terrible the next day would be, that no matter what I did, it was going to hurt me and cause pain to others. Pretending that such moments don’t happen is not faith: it’s denial. Authentic faith, Christ faith, means entering fully into the terror and darkness of such moments, like Jesus did in Gethsemane and on the cross.

Because only then do we discover the truth, which is embodied in one of the most powerful phrases in the Hebrew Bible, the one we heard today (Genesis 22:14): יהךה יראהThe LORD will provide. It’s easy to say that when life is good and there’s money in the bank, food in the fridge, and loved ones in good health. But we don’t really discover what it means until our day or our world implodes. I think I have shared with you one of the most moving pastoral conversations I have ever had, which took place after a Compassionate Friends memorial service. A married couple were telling me about the death of their son some years before, which was awful beyond words. But then they described the various ways they had experienced God’s grace and redemption since that time, and then the father said, “I miss my son every day, but, you know, I don’t think I would change anything.” How can you get to that point after such a tragedy? How can a bishop dying from a brain tumor proclaim the love of God, as a dear friend of mine did? How can a dead body hanging on a cross lead to life? There is no way to answer such questions academically: our creed and our catechism won’t suffice. Like Abraham, we can only live them and experience the answer ourselves.


I don’t wish for you any bleak moments this week or ever. But when they come, my charge to you is simple: don’t avoid them. Don’t think that faith means denying them. Faith means walking forward into the darkness with whatever trust we can muster, with open hands and open hearts, willing to discover the truth for ourselves: יהךה יראהThe LORD will provide.

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